Coping with depression: Being overwhelmed

coping with depressionEver have one of those days? Or weeks? Or months? You feel pretty focused, motivated, efficient. But as you try to go to sleep each night you’re overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by all the things you have to do. Gotta send all those emails. Gotta write all those posts. Gotta deal with him and them and her and him. The laundry is piling up. The dishes are piling up. The dust is piling up. You’re getting things done but not faster than they are being added to your stack. And the whole time you know without doubt that you don’t have the energy to get it all done. You used to be able to get a good night sleep and tackle everything in the morning and git ‘er done. No longer. Now, you need to get by with coping with depression.

I sometimes wonder if the overwhelming, sinking, drowning feeling comes simply from being so far “behind.” When I go to clean the kitchen, it’s not as bad as my office. The kitchen has a finite and small number of dishes to put into the dishwasher, a finite but somewhat larger number of toys, stuffed animals, books, magazines on the counters. Just throw those into my daughter’s room and I’m good to go. But, my office! Piles of books with no available bookshelf space. Piles of papers falling over and totally corrupting their geological timescale striations. Nary a flat surface to be found. To put down my coffee cup, I need to move papers which means I need to move books which means …

I simply don’t know where to start. In the kitchen, I have a starting place. Put the dishes in the sink into the dishwasher. That’s easy. In my office, I’ve no place to put anything without requiring structural supports akin to those in a 1000 foot coal mine.

So, where do I start? That is the question of the day. How do I tame this hydra? I finish one task, cut of one head, and two more tasks appear. With no hope of even breaking even, why play the game?

This is not a rhetorical question. It’s a serious question requesting serious input. How do I go about catching up? What devices or tricks do you use? What software or apps do you use? How do you organize your time?


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